Recent experiences: the philosophical investigations - dispositional reading frustrated by the interventions of Kripke; the accumulation of books - violent, seductive, debasing mounds; the compulsive elaboration of certain common metaphors (mirrors, cancer - no sports yet, thank god); the reduction of philosophy to oedipal neurosis; a developing obsession with the real physical hollowness of the human organism (biological fact as signifier for Lacan’s empty signifiers); the opacity of language; the reprieve of a bed filled with fiancee and new cat (contentment as traumatic event - the obvious biblical, linguistic metaphor: a return to babble); continued insecurity over mathematical incompetence, incapacity to speak french, inability to finish school.

No time for personalized email. Distaste for the mass produced variety – assembly-line nightmares, post-modern paranoia (meaning writhing in agony and dying - the unconstrained mitosis of cancer). Thus, blog: primitive like wall etchings, or propaganda posters (Lenin peering out from over my computer) – dark, proto-linguistic, guttural. Thus also: a peculiar style – terse, impressionistic, gnomic like prophesy (or the rumblings of revolution?(Lenin as psychological disturbance)). Contrast my typical neurotic involutions - the narcism of opposing mirrors, the obsessive persistence of the golden ratio. The hyper-realism of Baudrillard.

And THEN: an edit.